Stress or Why I seem so emo lately

Here it is over a month later since my last update.

Zach got sent home from school for abdominal discomfort. Talked with the doctor and there is a virus going around. We just need to watch him. All of his blood work came back great. Hemoglobin is up to 14! I just never know when to bring him home and when to leave him in school. I'm so freaked out over every little thing with him.

I haven't seen Dad in forever, I tried to call the grandmonster and she didn't answer. I don't have the bandwidth to deal with it. I feel like the worst daughter in the world but I just can't. There aren't enough hours in the day. There isn't enough emotional anything left at the end of the day. This is killing me. The guilt is horrible.

Then there is work. I'm already doing as many hours as I can, working at home after I leave the office. Even on weekends. No matter how much I do I can't seem to do enough. I'm failing. I'm so far behind, I can't sleep because I'm thinking of the things I have to do, when I do fall asleep it's for a few hours and I'm back to thinking what I need to do..If I add it up I'm doing 60+ hours a week. I feel like I could work a straight 24 and still not get caught up.

This is why I may seem so emo. I feel like I'm failing at everything. I've gained 20 pounds in the last year. I'm feeling very fat and out of sorts. In all, I'm just generally unhappy. I have no more spoons at the end of each day.

I'm failing at life.. This life that I'm leading isn't what I had wanted.

Eta - so if I seem overly emo it's not really emo, it's stress and just not having enough spoons.